Getting off the roller coaster so I can enjoy RETIREMENT

WOW...talk about the emotional roller coaster. For over a month now I have gone up and down on that darn roller coaster. A month ago I had that great retirement party thrown by my bus drivers (post with pictures is forthcoming) I loved it and realized I was going to miss many friends that I had seen everyday for 12 years. Then it was back to reality, trying to rush and finish off all the requests at work that I was asked to gather to help the new guy get started in my place. Back to work like that reminded me why I was retiring. It always seems to be "urgent" to get someone a report only to have it "put on the back burner until next year" and not take care of it immediately. So my last 3 weeks of work were miserable. Then before that all came to an end, I left for my quick trip to Virginia to meet my new grandson and see my sweet granddaughters. What I forgot was that I would be seeing Cami again after a year apart and what emotions surfaced for me when I saw her at the airport. Even Ric and Diona had been home at Christmas, but Cami didn't make it home. So the entire trip was full of raw emotions. Holding Seven and playing with the girls just reminded me of how much I miss in their lives. And to top it off, Cami and I went "bride dress shopping" which is an off -the -wall emotional time anyway. And then saying good bye again. Back to work and frustration for 6 more days. And finally on the last day, just turning in my keys and looking around my stuffy little office that served as my "home away from home" for 12 years brought on a few tears. But before I could even get on with retirement, I had to say goodbye to my sister who was a reason for me to move to Blythe to begin with. I knew they were leaving, I just didn't expect it to be so soon. But it was probably just as well, why prolong the inevitable? So I cried again.

But now I am fully retired (it's Monday and I didn't go anywhere!) and I will soon get to work doing what I want to do. So, off the roller coaster and on with my future...