I miss them

My car still automatically drives down Murphy without me thinking about it. I miss Mom and Dad being so close. The house still looks the same on the outside but the backyard is dead- they've let it go completely and I assume they will be taking out those dried up citrus trees. But the front of the house still looks the same except their chairs are gone from the front porch and so are they...

I miss my GRANDKIDS

It is so hard not to live close to all the grandkids. I love the ones I see often (and daily) but I miss the others who are so far away.

The bad side of Facebook

I am a little depressed right now. Two things happened on my Facebook which I found hard to take. First, let me say, I am fairly new to FB and I'm not even sure of its' capabilities or if I even "do it right". So today while looking at my friends list, I was shown an option "search for classmates from Millikan High class of 1972". Wow, that sounded pretty good to me. I have not been to ANY class reunion (nor have I had a desire to go) but was still curious enough to go look. So it showed me 176 classmates and I only knew 1! I swear to you, I did not recognize the name or face of any of the other 175 classmates. Did I sleep through 4 years of my life? How could I not know anyone? I will be the first to admit that I didn't like high school, I don't have fond memories of it or of teachers or friends (except one teacher who was killed the year after I graduated). I had a steady boyfriend all 4 years and I know that I tended to hang out with my sister's church friends (a year younger) but, come on, shouldn't I know someone from a class? I think it is just freaky.

The second thing is simply this: I thought I would ask to be a friend to just about anyone I know, so when a young niece confirmed me as a friend, I was happy to think I could keep in touch with her once in awhile. WRONG! Instead, I am going to her wall and reading texts between her and her young and just as crazy friends and finding out more than I want to know about her and her life. Things I didn't know about her and don't want to know. I feel bad, I never meant to "spy" on her but obviously she is using FB as her social calendar and probably most of her "friends" are just that and not fudy-dudy old relatives. I can just stop going to her wall and then I won't have to know what she is up to, but, can you also drop friends, take her off my list? Like I said, TMI for me. It shouldn't bother me so much, but it does.

Sleepless in Blythe

I have seriously been bothered by the lack of ability to "just put it to rest" and stop thinking about it. It being whatever is so heavy on my mind that day (which these days is my campaign).

My body is aging and therefore will have me waking up at least once during the night or early morning hours which wouldn't be bad if I could just go back to bed and go back to sleep. But I cannot stop my mind from going over every detail of every thought that I have ever had. It is frustrating! I try to force myself into a dream of some sort but I always seem to get turned back to the issue on hand. Any suggestions?